Homework

Davey and I decided our homework to prepare for this Big Conversation will be to come up with questions to email one another, write about the other person's questions, and then talk about it. Additionally, my homework is to imagine the good things that could happen from this B.C.

"Don't think about specific scenarios and scripts," he says. "Think about how it will feel."

Fine. If it goes well...

the air between us will be gentle. we'll hug for a long time before leaving. we'll see each other over the weekend for my birthday party and his moving party. i'll be looking forward to telling him about my travels and hearing about his, and keeping in touch. i'll be looking forward to visiting him in california, having somewhere to stay when i get there. i'll feel the movement between us, the feeling of becoming unstuck, like the first time i bent my knee after surgery. shift. creaking and discomfort and even pain, but moving unmistakably forward. forward into maybe something extraordinary that can maybe be good for both of us. even though all my friends roll their eyes about him, he's helped me grow a lot in the past four years. perhaps now we can grow together.

is that the best thing? and what am i going to ask him? tomorrow's assignment, maybe.